To Be Cont...

Just like the tv shows....this story is to be continued at another time on another day....I wanna tell her story and I know it hurts...who more? Me or her??? TO BE CONTINUED.......................................................................

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Im under the influence.....ENOUGH SAID......

Truth in Words...

"DEATH LEAVES A HEARTACHE THAT NO ONE CAN HEAL BUT LOVES LEAVES A MEMORY THAT NO ONE CAN STEAL...."

!Men!

I was on youtube the other day and I ran across a spoken word contest and the guy giving his poem was great....he mentioned that he was dreaming and he was at the spelling bee and he was given the word "father" and he spelled it...M O T H E R....and it got me to thinking...yeah my Mother has always been there for me but im so thankful that I had a Dad that was too...It doesn't take a man to make a baby..but it does take one to step up to the plate and take care of his responsibilities...and thats what makes a MAN...no half-stepping...so I say this to say THANK YOU!!! To all the men who step up and do what they have to do for their children....I was blessed to have a Daddy that took care of me and also a step-dad who took care of me...so to the world...there are good MEN out there...they just go unappreciated....I thank God for the good MEN in my life....I want my husband to be like my Daddy....

Picture This...A Tangeled Web

Picture This!
A Woman
tangeled in her own web
intoxicated by the way each strand makes her feel while she puffs on her weed that she rarely smokes and she drinks from the half empty half full bottle of vodka as she..
Picture This!
Of these strands that have all at some point felt the same to her she notices three that give her the pain and pleasure she needs....
In these three are very different characteristics that entice her....
She must choose...
Picture This!
The first being known to many by his longetivity in the tangle
a lot of pain, a lot of tears but no matter what there is no time lost between us as we converse on our own level...love remains and the heart of the queen lies in your hand.
Picture This!
The second having to prove that being stuck in the tangle is not by mere chance...that being here is a privlege granted too he...Love not complete but exists between us two...stimulating the organ that reproduces to life...
Picture This!
The third...1st inning head over heels...before hills became the source of pain to remove what blocked happiness...A return to love being made as love making becomes the highlighting factor to change...to change my way of looking at what once was and only see what is...
Picture This!
A choice has to be made....because no one created this web but she...and she cant figure out how to untangle the web...picture this!

Feelings....True?

I've come to terms with the fact that everything is not going to be as I wish them or as I would like them to be at all times. Sometimes I feel like Im stuck in between a rock and a hard place...like my back is against the wall in every situation. I sometimes feel like I'm fighting a battle that I will never win...I sometimes feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders...If I move too fast everything will fall apart but if I move too slow everything will fall apart. I question my decisions and choices everyday...how can I get past that...to the point where I'm not living for the next person but only for myself...Like this race is mine and mine alone and the only person that can cross the finish line first is me. How do I become selfish without becoming selfish??? Wish I could roll all my worries and fears and concerns up and put them in a coke bottle...throw it into the ocean and watch them slowly fade away...Then joy will be forever instead of temporary...and as the waves of the ocean takes the bottle of my insecurities farther and farther away...my tears would cease to exist...and I would be fully content....or would I???