Only If

If I could
Only if I could
I'd love you to no ends
I'd never leave your side
I'd protect you from all pain
You and Me...we'd be
We would I would
Only if I could
But I can't
Cause you aint...

ME MYSELF & I

ALONE....ALL ALONE

JUST ME MYSELF AND I

ALONE WITH MY THOUGHTS

AND I CRY

FOR ME

FOR MYSELF &

MOSTLY FOR I

MILLION DOLLAR GIRL

So as you all know I....yes I....was the winner of the Million Dollar Girl contest on twitter...when I first found out that I won I admit I was super nervous and super excited cause nothing like this EVER happens to me...Im just a normal 24 year old...college degree, no kids, in grad school, and working full-time. I have been a huge huge huge fan of Trina since....FOREVER!!!!! First off, I was super pissed because my flight got delayed...but hell what could I do about the weather??? All I knew was I was ready to see Da Baddest herself...Ms Trina....I get to Dallas finally and Alex...Trina's executive assistant, comes to get me from the airport...she is gorgeous and sooooooooooo nice....she asked me like 100 times was I nervous and all I could do was say YEAH...VERY....

FAST FORWARD----------->

Im sitting in the hotel lobby...texting on my phone as usual...and I look up and TRINA is walking up to me...I wanted to scream....no words would come out of my mouth...I was literally STAR STRUCK...SHE looked AMAZING...thats an understatement tho...she was everything I imagined she would be and more...bt all I could say was....TRINA...u are TRINA...i love you...lol...I was speechless...we hugged and I cant even begin to explain how wonderful I felt....so we left the hotel and went to the mall....I was walking thru the mall with TRINA....like forreal...we went in GODIVA first and got some chocolate covered strawberries and the whole crew was there whom by the way is some of the most DOWN-TO-EARTH, cool and crazy people you could ever meet in your life....SO I got this cute lil dress and vest courtesy of yours truly MS TRINA...btw I cant wait to wear it....Later that night Trina performed at Club Flow...and she shut that B!tch DOWN...im standing on stage behind her in awe like....DAMN!!!!! SHE IS TRULY DA BADDEST!!!!!!! And of course im tuning all the extra shit out...all i hear is TRINA!!!!! After Club Flow we hit up another club...I sat next to Trina at that club and I talked to her....she is like the most calm, cool, and collective person Ive ever met...This experience has been the best in my life...It gave me a new outlook on life...seeing Trina and meeting her and the MGC family...and I say FAMILY because thats how it feels when you are with them...like you are part of the family...has been one of the greatest experiences of my life and I will NEVER forget it...

BE-ING!

Its been a minute since Ive visited you!!!
Some say I came to often and that u couldnt get any rest.
So I practiced unselfishness and let you ease your mind.
You have done enough worrying about me...
I cant let u go forever cuz that strips me of my mortality
But I will give you time just as time has given me
To allow the strength of our Father to be made manifest in us!
We accept thy will!
But do know f*a*t*h*e*r
that you are and always will...BE!

To Be Cont...

Just like the tv shows....this story is to be continued at another time on another day....I wanna tell her story and I know it hurts...who more? Me or her??? TO BE CONTINUED.......................................................................

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Im under the influence.....ENOUGH SAID......

Truth in Words...

"DEATH LEAVES A HEARTACHE THAT NO ONE CAN HEAL BUT LOVES LEAVES A MEMORY THAT NO ONE CAN STEAL...."